2014 went by like a flash, almost as it seemed that I never was in 2014, was I ready for 2015? I'm not quite sure myself, but I have to anyways.
There's a lot of ups and downs in 2014, many of which I took a risk which I'm not sure it will be beneficial for me. In the beginning of 2014, I decided to drop out of Inti University which I took A-level, reason because I'm not interested in the course which probably give my parents a big shock that they had to waste so much money to switch my course to something that which in contrast of what I learned for decades- science, to Mass Communication in Taylor's University. Was I happy I made the decision? Yes definitely, in my new uni I met so much amazing people compared to when I was Inti (not being bias) but I'm telling you the truth, I like how people in 2 different Universities think differently and I conclude myself to be more suitable as a Taylorian since I speak more English, and people there don't really give a crap about your life, contrasting with Inti tho, there are more Chinese-speakers in Inti which made me a little uncomfortable since I'm not that good in Chinese but it helped me improved my language, people there are more keh-poh I guess since I involved in many rumours lol. I'm happier in my new University because environment is so much better and ofcourse doing course I love equal to a happier me and trust me how I look in Inti and how I look in Taylor's is reaaaaaally different. BIG CONTRAST. I'm not saying Taylor's is so much better than Inti, it depends on your personal preference. Don't get me wrong tho, I did have number of good friends I truly treasure in Inti :)
I also gotten lots of opportunity whether it's blog, or a photoshoot or magazine appearance or event invitation. I'm truly grateful.
In 2014, I met so much new amazing people, whether it's college mates, people I met in club, people I met elsewhere, or professional individuals, they all given me the opportunity to learn new things. However, I would like to emphasize on my love relationship, I must say the love life I am currently experiencing is probably the happiest relationship I had, and I actually did put effort to the relationship. He's amazing and there's a lot to say but I'll leave in in another post.
However, there's also times I get frustrated and sad most of the times that I almost left my blog. I was so uninspired in that period, I left my emails/blog untouched. I must say many good opportunity was given to me, I missed or rejected because I wasn't confident about myself and what I want to be. I blamed myself why I couldn't do better and compare myself with someone better than me, and wronged myself why I wasn't good enough. Yet, I didn't do anything about it.
Despite all the ups and downs I faced in the year 2014, 2015 is a chance for me to close that chapter in 2014 and be a better individual and face new challenges in 2015.
So here comes my resolutions;
This year I will be a better individual in terms of physically or mentally. To be nearer to God in everything I do. To do more good deeds, to think positive always, to always see good in people, to be a forgiving person, to be kinder to people, to be more sociable, to venture myself and challenge myself to step out of my comfort zone to see what I'm capable of and to be more thankful of what I have. To always love people instead of hate. To be always inspired.
Last but not least the greatest challenge that I know that I will face yet is the long distance relationship that I'll be having. 12 hours difference, not easy. However, I will learn to trust God and trust Daniel. Put God in the relationship and leaves my burden and doubts of the relationship to God. I learn the fact that if we were meant to be, we will be.
And I wanna say thank you for every person I met in life, whether you stay or you left I am truly grateful to each and everyone of you. To people that I just met, thank you for taking the initiative to say hello, and walk into my life, may our friendship be stronger and hopefully it will stay longer. For people that stays with me throughout the years, thank you for putting up with me even in my worst time watching me grow, thank you so much, may our friendship will last forever. To people that was once important to me and left, thank you so much for the lovely memories, I'll forget the ugly ones but keep the happy memories instead, thank you for taking the risk to step into this wrecked life of mine and left footprints, you will be remembered. Each and everyone of you are people that build me up to be the kind of person I am today, for better or worse in your preference, still, I grew as an individual :)
And the person that I wanna be so thankful to have in 2014 is none other than my boyfriend, sacrifice so much for my selfish self, he taught me the existence of selfless and pure love, if you ask me if I ever met anyone that love me like that other than my family, none. The person that leads me nearer to God when I was out of faith, the person that always have faith in me and support me in whatever I do. The only person that I ever dared to show my vulnerable self eventho he doesnt understand why I was being that way. My home away from home. My laughing gas. I love you more and more everyday and I hope our love continue to grow. Thank you for appearing in my life.
So that conclude my summary of 2014 and my way of saying hello to 2015 and hello to the age of 20's. Dang I feel so old.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE, MAY 2015 BE A FRUITFUL ONE TO ALL.
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